Make up

I never thought I'd say it, but I think I want to start wearing make up. I've been thinking about this for a very very long time. I think the first time I wore make up not on stage was for my senior pictures in high school. My mom was really disappointed in my senior photos because she didn't think I looked much like me. She was so disappointed, in fact, that she tried to get me to go back for a second sitting without make up. I said no. I really liked how I looked in my senior photos--I looked like the glamerious beautiful girl I always secretly wanted to be. But as much as I secretly wanted to be that girl, (1) it was a secret I didn't feel like letting anyone in on, and (2) I wanted to be her secretly because I was afraid of attracting "the wrong kind of men". Also, it seriously felt vain.

So there you have it. I'm not worried about attracting the wrong kind of men anymore because I know I wont be tempted to go out on a date with them and I don't have to worry about sorting the right sort out from the wrong sort any more. And after I post this, it will no longer be a secret. It still feels vain... but I think I can get over that part with practice... most other women seem to manage it.