Interview

I don't think it really went all that well. Don't get me wrong, though, it was fun to go talk to a recent alum in industry in a field I'm interested in. However, I don't think I came across as well as I should have, and Raytheon didn't either. I think there are two categories of national defense: defense and offence. I couldn't do the offence part, the building and designing bombs part. I have pretty serious reservations about the defense part, too, but not nearly so much so. Anyway, the only Raytheon location which overlaps with anywhere Josh is looking at for school is Arizona, and the interviewer said that the Arizona locations are pretty much missile houses--there would be quite literally nothing there for someone who didn't want to do that. So there we have it--no overlap. I told him I am interested in pretty much wherever they are doing stuff other than bombs, though no locations in particular since there isn't any overlap.

I am a bad, bad person

I haven't gotten a good night's sleep in two days, and it is already Tuesday and I haven't started my E&M homework yet. I also haven't studied for the midterm I have tonight. I am such a bad person.

Let there not be more homework in Archaeoastronomy this week...

Is there anyone out there I can get a ride to the airport from? I'm flying out around 3pm, and I bet I'm not the only one...

"When do you want to marry me?"

I promise this entry will be short because I'm just sitting around here waiting for my tea water to boil before I got over the East to do work.

I missed Josh's call by 3 minutes tonight, but it was only a few minutes after 9pm, so I just called him back.

In thinking about seriously looking for jobs before Josh knows where he wants to go to grad school might not be so smart. I think maybe Jess and Ben have the right idea--gradschooler chooses a school and then non-gradschooler looks for a job there in an active way. Of course, Ben will also have two years of work experience under his belt already. I'll continue to talk to the recruiters who come to campus, but I'm not going to be proactive about it for the time being because I just don't know what I'm looking for... and I'm going to stop feeling guilty about it.

Josh wants to know when I want to get married. I mean, the plan is May or June, but we haven't yet specified a year. Originally we were planning for it to be this coming year, but we were also planning on living together for this school year. I'm a little uncomfortable with rushing into getting married after only seeing each other every few weeks all year before. Josh seems really changed already from being on his own. I think the changes are for the better, but what if there are changes that aren't that I don't see because I'm not there--a year is a long time. On the other hand, there is a certain "status" that goes with actually being married--things like health care (if it takes me a while to find a job, or Josh doesn't find a grad school) in particular, a whole range of society taking us more seriously ("No, you can't see him. Oh, you're Mrs. Peterdorf, well in that case..."), etc. I don't know if that would end up being a big deal or not. But we do live in a society where the acceptable way to live together is married, whether I like it or not. I also don't want Josh to think I don't take him seriously. I think to him getting married this summer would mean really being committed to making the arrangement for next year (whatever it might end up being) work. I don't see it that way so much--I think I'll be equally committed whether we've had a ceremony or not--but I also wasn't raised Catholic.

My teawater is hot already and I have more I want to say on this... I guess I'll post more later.